Muftiah feels to share here... a most unique Experience... that she had... as Grazia... in the port city of Durban... South Africa... during her first year in SUBUD...
She was a new arrival... from Johannesburg... running away from her beloved Richard... because he was married... and she could no longer cope... with her growing feelings for him... with their situation... seeming so hopeless...
Her Inner Love for him... had become deeper... and deeper... ever since... it Being GOD's Will... that just reunited with Richard... from their previous Japanese incarnation... he be GOD's spontaneous channel... to "Open..." ... and "Awaken..." her Inner self...
And upon joining the very well organized... large Durban SUBUD Center.. she was told... that it was their custom... to spend Sunday afternoons... listening to the Talks of BAPAK... on tape... and that the precious occasions... took place... in each other's homes... by rotation...
Looking very much forward to hearing the Voice of BAPAK... for the very first time in her life... Grazia eagerly looked forward to the next occasion...
Finally... it was Sunday afternoon... and having been told that the wealthiest SUBUD couple... would be hosting them... this time... and what a beautiful mansion they lived in... wanting to give a favorable impression... she put on her very Sunday best... for the momentous event...
She was given a lift to the mansion... and was pleased to see... that her party... were the first to arrive... so she was able to introduce herself to the couple... as newly arrived from Johannesburg... and engage in pleasant conversation... with them...
They got along very well... together... with the couple charmed by Grazia's distinctively foreign accent... and she was equally charmed... by their natural... warm manner... very modest... in their mid fifties... but looking much younger... than their ages... making Grazia immediately realize... that they were truly SUBUD... almost self-effacing... their enormous wealth... making no difference... in their behavior... at all...
And before long... they were telling her the fascinating story... of the great difference... between a pre-SUBUD child... and an after-SUBUD child...
Before they joined SUBUD... they had a family of three children... whom they had raised... as normal parents... but then... shortly after they were "Opened"... at Coombe Springs... in England... a few years ago... they had a SUBUD child... a boy...
And almost from birth... it seemed as if their son was an aware baby... for he seemed to know exactly... what was right for him... and they had to keep reminding themselves... that he was actually a little baby... now only two and a half years old... but to them... SUBUD-wise... he was a "grown person"...!
By the end of their fascinating story... with Grazia... thrilled to be learning more and more... about SUBUD... in her first year... the rest of the Members had arrived... and they all settled themselves... comfortably... on roomy... plushy soft chairs... and on sofas... some twenty people of men and women... in the large... elegantly furnished room... in preparation to hear the scheduled Talk... from their Spiritual SUBUD Father... BAPAK...
Grazia had already heard BAPAK'S explanation... about Members "dozing off"... during his Talks... and that it was an indication... that their hearts... and minds... were now quiet... and how... it did not matter... if the listeners heard the Words of BAPAK... with their ears...
They were actually the WORDS OF GOD... ISSUING OUT OF BAPAK'S MOUTH...!!! JUST LIKE MOHAMMED... WHEN HE WAS HERE ON EARTH... ALSO SENT BY GOD... TO HELP
MANKIND...
(BAPAK was once heard to say... before he began his Talk... sitting quietly... in a Receiving State... in front of his SUBUD children... that he was waiting... for the "CONDUCTOR..." )
And it did not matter... if the listener... understood the Words that BAPAK was Receiving to say... with his mind... because his Jiwa... would both hear... and understand... perfectly... what BAPAK was Saying...
Nevertheless... determined to stay awake... feeling it was an insult... to BAPAK... to "doze off"... during his Talk... Grazia braced herself...
And then... she heard the Voice of BAPAK... for the very first time... in her life... and he was saying... speaking very gently... in his mother tongue of Bahasa Indonesia...:-
"Sudara Sudara..."
But Grazia heard no more... for to her horror... as the enormity of the Sound of his Voice... Penetrated into her being... as if to the very depths of her soul... she burst into great... heaving sobs of anguish... feeling as if her very soul... was being ripped out of her...!
Unable to stop herself... a part of her filled with self-disgust.. at disrupting the afternoon... making a spectacle of herself... the more she heard the Voice of BAPAK... the deeper it pierced... painfully inside her... and she found herself... sobbing... and wailing... unable to control herself...!
Then Grazia felt a hand touch her shoulder... and she was being lifted up to her feet... and her knees giving way... she was led out into the beautiful garden... supported by the strong arms of a lady...
The lady... a total stranger... who was almost as tall as she was... at six feet... was very kind to her... as now... cradling her close to her breast... she murmured... her voice full of sympathy...:
"Let it all out... my dear... you'll feel much better... if you do... don't hold anything back... just let it all out..."
And Grazia sobbed... and wailed... and moaned... and groaned.. her heart and soul out...
When she finally calmed down ... she needed to be taken as far away... as possible... from the Voice of BAPAK ... which was Coming clearly... through the French glass doors...
Because... every time she heard the Reality of his Voice... it would et her off again...
In a remote corner... of the beautiful garden... which was decorated with a profusion of flowering bushes... with the sweet... delicate aromas... filling the air around them... the kind lady gently explained... that there were some rare people... who were so sensitive... in their Inner selves... that they were able to truly feel the Essence... of a person... through their Voice... and it seemed... as if she was one of them...!
The next Sunday afternoon... that she heard the distinctive Voice of BAPAK again... as soon as she heard the gentle tone... instead of bursting into sobs... like the last time... she felt BAPAK's overwhelming Love... and total Approval of her... and the Wonderful Feeling of Warmth... Penetrated into her deepest self... Filling her with a sense of Calm... and Peace... such as she had never known...!
And from then on... she would feel this same Love... and total Approval... of her... and Calm... and Peace... every time she heard the gentle Voice of BAPAK... saying... "Sudara Sudara..."
(To Be Continued with an Excerpt... from Muftiah's first book... "From The Shadow... Of The Rising Sun..." Part III Chapter 21... How Two Devoted Children Of God... Nadia And Dimitri... Are Introduced To... And Deeply Touched... In Their Souls... By The Miracle... Of The Holy Word "SUBUD"... In A Very Unusual Way... The Remarkable Experience... Exceedingly Blessing... And Transforming Them... Forever...! ... Insha Allah... God Willing... Thursday 1/6/11)
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